About me

brolly

‘Why does it always rain on me?’

Firstly, thank you for visiting this blog and taking the time to read this, I hope you will enjoy reading my posts. I’d like to stay anonymous for now, as I don’t feel that I’m ready to ‘out’ myself just yet and I’m still hugely lacking in confidence as I’m very new to blogging.

A little bit of info though. I’m a woman from the South West of England in her early 30’s, who has been struggling with severe depression for many years and searching desperately for an outlet to express and explore her experiences. This blog will be it.

Also,

I love music.

I love reading.

I love cooking.

I ย get really, really sad quite a lot of the time.

I’m a hopeless romantic.

I don’t trust some doctors to know what’s best for me after a ten minute consultation.

I feel like a useless failure who will always make a mess of things.

I’m a Radio 4 addict and I read The Guardian religiously.

Sometimes, I don’t leave the house for days and days.

I’m not married, nor do I have kids.

I’m not on any medication for depression at the moment.

I still live at home with my mother.

I used to be a lot happier.

I’m wasting my life and I hate myself for it.

I’ve never tried to commit suicide, but the thoughts about it come and go often. It’s scary.

I’ve always wanted to try my hand at ย a bit of writing.

I’d be delighted to hear any comments or feedback that anybody has.

brolly

6 thoughts on “About me

  1. Hi:
    I wanted to thank you for visiting my website and liking my article on mental health crises. I appreciate that. ๐Ÿ™‚

    I also noticed that you state you have decided to remain anonymous for fear of “outing yourself.” I totally get this. Sadly, for bloggers today, there really is a lot of stigma attached to mental health and sharing your personal experience with a name and photo attached, can be risky. The risk is enough to turn anyone away, I get it! I read posts from a lot of bloggers who struggle with this. You can find some of them at http://www.healthyplace.org. We live in a society where sharing the truth can hurt you, yet, there are times when sharing the truth may be more beneficial than you realize. It’s tricky. I do hope that one day you will be able to post the way you ultimately want to.

    Take care

    • Hello. Thank you very much for taking the time to read through some of the stuff I’ve written and for also your comments on it. It’s interesting that you find this from lots of bloggers who write about similar things. There is unfortunately still a huge stigma attached to mental illness, although I think (or at least hope) that it’s getting a little better now. I’m not confident enough yet with my writing to blog under my real name and share with people who know me. I’m hoping it will come in time though. I wanted to be as honest about my experiences as possible, yet some of it is stuff I wouldn’t even tell my closest friends or family. Thank you for the link, I will have an explore of your page ๐Ÿ™‚

      • You’re welcome and I wish you all the best. Feel free to visit AnchoredInKnowledge.com or blogs.psychcentral.com/caregivers anytime. It’s resource for people who are looking for resources and information to support them. You can certainly “educate” your family and friends with these sites too, which is my ultimate goal.

        The previous link I gave was given to me by a friend, I’m hoping to explore it too!

        Take care

    • Hello there, thanks for taking the time to visit and comment on my blog ๐Ÿ™‚ I’ve just read your piece on Sylvia Plath and thoroughly enjoyed it. I will be back again. Thank you for the kind offer. I am new to blogging/writing so there’s an awful lot to improve on!

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